Burnt Out

OK, I must admit. I am having a hell of time getting my work done today. I'm worried about opulence_9, langsuir and kitsune_13. I'm worried about how my cats are doing in the hotel by themselves. I keep watching my monitoring program, waiting for my servers to come back up so I know the power is back on in the building (which means I can go home). I'm distracted, to say the least.

I'm worried that the drain this is going to put on me is going to mean I won't keep the promises I've made. I find myself going through little bouts of anger over a stupid comment made by someone who was supposed to have known me better. The company I had this weekend made it all bearable. Without that everything that has gone on these last few weeks is getting to me. I don't have my cosy home to go to to recharge.

My apartment is fine. I don't care if there is no running water, gas, or electricity. I know how to get by without those things. I don't care what the hallway smells like. I just want to go home for fuck's sake.

Oringinal post: http://mbarrick.livejournal.com/316810.html